I Never Asked For This

I never ask for this
I never ask for you to fall in love with me

I never ask for anything
I never ask you to say hi to me at the first time
I never ask you to text me every day, asking how I’ve been, have I eaten, etc.
I never ask you to ask me out for a movie date
I never ask you to ask me if I want to be your girlfriend

I never really ask for anything
I never really ask for constant caring, yet you provided me that
I never really ask you to pick me up and drop me off to everywhere, yet you insisted
I never really ask you to understand me, yet you accept every side of me
I never really ask you to buy me stuff, yet you buy me small stuff time to time
I never really ask you to make me your priority, yet you said that I am one of the few reason you still want to come home…
…that I am the reason you’re not drifting away

I never really ask for anything
But now I find myself desperately want to ask you something

…Will you promise to love me forever?

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