Curah Senja

  ‘Huh?’ This is strange. It’s too dark here. I never turn off the light when I sleep. Moreover, I was drunk last night. There’s no chance that the drunk me will turn off the light. And this is not a blackout. How did I know, you ask? Because if this is a blackout, this room will turn into a super-hot sauna that can literally kill me inside. I’m pretty sure I woke up naturally, not because I’m about to be turned into a dry human specimen. Actually, it’s pretty cold here. I can feel the wind breeze. Did I forget to close the window last night?  ‘Ouch!’ Ugh, this hangover is killing me. Somehow I remember now why I quit drinking 5 years ago. You do realize you quit drinking because she’s not fond of it, right? Oh great, I have to stop talking to myself. It started to answer back now. Soon, they’ll call me a literally crazy man. Ugh, this apartment is such a mess. I need to tidy up a little tomorrow morning after I get rid of this massive hangover. Really, I shouldn’t drink a ful...

 Have you ever, even for just one second, thought about it? All the laughs we shared back and forth. All that smile. Is it for nothing? So you're telling me that you'll let it drown in the sea of old memories,       not to be remembered nor spoken again.           Not even once. You hear me loud and clear.      I  tried my best to suppress .. almost everything I'm not gonna blow up anything soon. I swear I'm good at that.     It's not like you to worry about me. Stop wishing for something impossible.       Turning back time is never a wise thing to do anyway. But one thing that I need you to know That kind of coldness never suits you.